When this happens, we are forgetting that the power for change lies not in our own efforts but in Jesus’ grace and sacrifice. His sacrifice not only relieves us of our sins and transgressions but radically transforms our past. In a sense, He instructs us not to look back because the past is His domain and He will draw good from it if we allow Him. He deeply desires to offer us this grace. Why do we cling to our own ways instead of His then? Perhaps we derive a sense of power from casting blame and harboring resentment. Maybe facing the shame and regret of what we’ve done feels too daunting. Maybe, as 12-step recovery teaches, it is simply that surrendering our will is the hardest thing for us. We desire to “wrest satisfaction” for ourselves, to mold past, present, and future to our own needs and specifications.

Recovery offers a concrete way forward in surrendering our will and letting the past be the past. Supported by sponsors who share their experience, strength, and hope, we can follow the path of the Steps as well as repentance, confession, and amends-making to reconcile with both God and neighbor. With others’ help, time, and much prayer, we can die to self and be resurrected with Jesus into new life. When this happens, our pasts are resurrected and transformed as well. Shame, resentment, and fear are reborn into gratitude, joy, and hope. Our histories become beautiful stories we can share showing God’s saving grace as we bear witness to His power, love, and way of life. When we leave our past behind and surrender to Christ in the moment, we can love others fully and freely, here and now.

Reflection Questions

• Is there anything in your past that you’re holding onto? If so, how can you ask God for help surrendering it to Him?
• What is your experience of shame, resentment, and/or regret in regard to your past? How has recovery and your relationship with Christ transformed these experiences into gratitude, joy, and hope?

Daily Mass Readings

First Reading: 2 John 4-9
Responsorial Psalm:  Psalm 119:1, 2, 10, 11, 17, 18
Gospel: Luke 17:26-37

Reflection by Ann A.