(1880-1906) Elizabeth Catez was a French girl who was full of life, stubborn, given to fits of rage, and a gifted pianist. Despite her disposition, she was drawn to prayer, caring for the sick, and teaching the faith to children. She entered the Discalced Carmelite monastery at 21. During her novitiate, she experienced significant spiritual growth that was interrupted by periods of deep darkness. She became a spiritual director and retreat guide and died at 26 years old from Addison’s disease.
Even those who climb the heights in prayer can experience moments of darkness. The will of our Higher Power is outside of our comprehension at times, and those are the hardest moments of trust and surrender. We are powerless, God can restore sanity, and we commit to turn our will and our lives over to His care (Steps 1-3). Committing to these steps is foundational for our entire program of recovery. How do you surrender and trust when God’s will seems hidden or incomprehensible?
“It seems to me that I have found my heaven on earth, because my heaven is you, my God, and you are in my soul. You in me, and I in you – may this be my motto” (Saint Elizabeth of the Trinity).
Reflection by Brad Farmer