The sorrow, shame, remorse, and regret can feel like storm waves crashing down. It can be overwhelming and lead to a despair that can tempt us to hide in the boat—to return to denial, to numb the pain, or even to go back to the addictions and attachments we once relied upon. It is here that our fellows in recovery are so important. Sponsors and others with experience remind us that uncovering these wounds is not failure but the beginning of healing. It is part of recovery. They encourage us to take the next step, even when we are full of fear, and all we have is the smallest faith, like Peter: a faith that sometimes looks only like willingness. This willingness is enough to move forward in recovery.
But just as Jesus does not first calm the storm for Peter, He does not always immediately take away our grief or pain. Instead, He says, “Come.” He is drawing us deeper into the very relationship that both recovery and our Catholic faith reveal as the true answer to our deepest wounds. We will still lose our way, become overwhelmed, and begin to sink. But His hand will always be there to lift us up again. We witness healing miracles in recovery in the form of sobriety, mended relationships, and restored lives. Yet some wounds remain, becoming a new invitation to reach for His hand in surrender and trust. One day every wound will be healed, every tear wiped away, and all things will be made new.
Reflection Questions
- In what ways is recovery encouraging you to “step out of the boat” and face the consequences of addiction, whether that be the harms you caused, wounds you carry, or regrets you still have? How do the Steps help you to “keep your eyes” on Jesus when troubles, anxieties, and sorrows are distracting you?
- Looking at your own recovery journey so far, where have you already seen signs of restoration? What healing are you still hoping and praying for?
Daily Mass Readings
First Reading: Jeremiah 30:1-2, 12-15, 18-22
Responsorial Psalm: Psalm 102:16-18, 19-21, 29, 22-23
Gospel: Matthew 14:22-36
Reflection by Ann A.